The price of pretend.
You pretend that your needs, feelings and desires were not important.
You hid your disappointments and hurt feelings and feigned happiness for his benefit.
You pretend to be the person that he first idealized by trying harder the more he devalued you.
You anticipate and met all of his needs and acted as if it did not matter that he did not appreciate this.
You pretend that he was interesting and funny when he wasn’t.
You invent excuses for his strange behavior, that you came to believe were true.
You put on a show for family and friends to cover up your sorrow and suffering.
You pretend it didn’t matter that you lost contact with friends and family.
You believe you interests, passions and hobbies were only secondary.
You told yourself that you were an individual even as you were slowly fading away.
You pretend that he loved you even though deep down you know that he didn’t.
You held on to the belief that he would change even though you knew he never would.
You hid your disappointments and hurt feelings and feigned happiness for his benefit.
You pretend to be the person that he first idealized by trying harder the more he devalued you.
You anticipate and met all of his needs and acted as if it did not matter that he did not appreciate this.
You pretend that he was interesting and funny when he wasn’t.
You invent excuses for his strange behavior, that you came to believe were true.
You put on a show for family and friends to cover up your sorrow and suffering.
You pretend it didn’t matter that you lost contact with friends and family.
You believe you interests, passions and hobbies were only secondary.
You told yourself that you were an individual even as you were slowly fading away.
You pretend that he loved you even though deep down you know that he didn’t.
You held on to the belief that he would change even though you knew he never would.
The price of pretending is the loss of you and what is real.
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